My Mom says...

I need to learn how to love myself. The only problem with that is my complete lack of knowledge on the subject. Loving oneself? I've never truly understood how it's supposed to work or how you go about such a process. But I don't think it's impossible. Physical impossibilities exist, but self-actualization is very real and very difficult. To be honest, I'd rather go through the process than take medication, which my mother has implicated to more than once. So, I'll start with baby steps by listing as many things about myself that I truly love as I can. God, this is going to be the lamest blog ever, but here goes:

1. I love my eyes. I will admit that they are very unique because they are large and round (dirty). I learned in seventh grade that round eyes are actually the inferior gene that you inherit when you are born. Most people are born with almond shaped eyes. Plus, I can look like an alien, a lemur, and a dead person all at once. And if you look at my baby pictures, my eyes take up half of my face. It's awesome.
   
2. I seriously don't mind being goofy. I can make fun of myself and it isn't a negative reflection of me, its just me being comfortable with some of my flaws. I can act immature and say the dumbest shit and its okay because self-deprecation is actually a great confidence booster (in my case anyways).
3. I love my body. That's the most narcissistic statement I will ever make, but it's true. And it's not even because I think I'm beautiful, but I have the fastest metabolism in the human race. I have truly been blessed. I doubt I'll ever have problems with weight in my lifetime. I don't mind being ultra-skinny and I like it in fact. And I actually filled out over the last few months, so I don't look like a walking broom-stick anymore...Sweet.
4. I love my teeth. They are rather large and shiny and white, just like my dad's. They were straight, but that's okay. I'm getting them fixed.
5. I love the fact that I need change. I crave change and if I don't have it I go crazy. That just tells me I will live a fulfilling and memorable life. When I die, I won't have regrets that I didn't do enough.
6. I love that I like to read. No, love to read. Since the moment I knew what a book was, I was reading. I just sort read stuff and sucked it all up like a sponge. And I'm still that way. I can't imagine a life without books surrounding me.

Yeah...to be honest, that's about it. Didn't really dig deep there.

But I'm taking baby steps.